zephyr says |
random thoughts. random pictures. all to let me disappear. and reappear. just to disappear again. |
So most people tell me how one has very distinct singular roots. How one belongs to one community. As a kid that troubled me. I was born a Bengali. I was born in a quiet city called Midnapur in West Bengal. And I grew up all over India.
Primarily in Punjab. And before I knew it I felt and behaved like one.
But that is the thing. My roots have kept evolving throughout.
I do not have singular roots. I have roots in many places and in many cultures. I find my roots in Pune too. The city where I came of age. The city that broke my heart, mended it and taught me to be an adult.
My roots also lie in Delhi. A city I defend and criticize with equal passion. A city I cry for when I am away.
Now I live in Bombay and am slowly forming connections here. Slowly absorbing the essence of what makes it the way it is.
I have figured that I form these roots not just because of what I absorb but also because of people I interact with. The ones I meet… The ones who influence me… The ones who leave… It all contributes to small parts of what makes me and the stories behind the creation of these parts.
Over the years the realization of all this helped me come to terms with the fact that I am and will always be a khanabadosh. I will forever carry my home on my shoulders forming roots around the world. And THAT is quite a fun realization :)
home away from home :)
| Meredith: | “You said Derek and I would never make it.” |
| Cristina: | “And then I was karmically impaled for saying it.” |
| Meredith: | “But you’re right, I mean, people don’t really have happily ever afters. People barely have ever afters. So why would Derek and I be any different?” |
| Cristina: | ”Mer, why do you care what I think?” |
| Meredith: | ”Because you’re my person! And if I’m going to do this with him, and be whole and healthy and be a warm, gooey person who lives with a boy… I need you on board. I need you to cheer me on. Because you’re the only one who knows me. Darkly. Really knows me. I need you to pretend that I can do this even if you don’t believe. Because if you abandon me now, I will never make it, and I will never get my happy ending and that’s just…” |
| Cristina: | ”Life.” |
| Meredith: | ”I’m saying please here.” |
| Cristina: | ”I think you and Derek will make it. You will make it work.” |
| Meredith: | ”Are you just telling me what I wanna hear?” |
| Cristina: | ”I am your person. I am on your side.” |
he listens when no one does…
It is a minor fall
From your graces.
It is the demise
Of your enthusiasm.
Once more I blow out
My candles in the air.
It is a minor
Heartache.
No big deal.
Really!
It is just a joke,
And I laugh with you.
I sit across you
And sip bitter rum.
Toast to the start
And the finish.
It is a minor
Addition to my cynicism.
It is minor.
Really!
:)
(via honestly-wtf)
shine on
my little world…